It’s the end of 2025, and the start of 2026
2025 was a tough year. There was a lot going on in my personal life and a lot of projects – more than I could have easily managed. Lots was achieved, but it was brutal at times.
It’s the time of new year resolutions. Now, the general knowledge now has changed, that setting a new year resolution isn’t a great idea – because it’s likely to fail when one returns to old habits, and then that leads to depression and greater detriment. It’s better to simply improve habits throughout the year, not all at once at the start of the year – which should mean the changes stick.
That said, it is a time to reflect on the past year and look forward.
One of the things I struggle with are all of the things that I need to do. I get overwhelmed, I struggle to prioritise (it’s all important!), and then I shut down. With my depression, I often hide away in those moments. It’s hard to promote yourself and your work when your brain is calling you a failure. With my anxiety, I feel others will be judging (of course they will, but of course they won’t), so it’s difficult to share when one is struggling.
I went for a walk today, in a local park. I listened to a podcast. I drank my coffee from home in my portable cup. I had a dance in my room to awesome music this morning. I have done some cleaning (need to mop after this). I ate some leftovers from the meal I made last night for my flatmates and some friends who came over (gnocchi with a green sauce made with lentils, kale, peas, and parmesan, with leftover chicken). I had a lovely time last night with friends I hadn’t seen in a while. I had lovely chats with friends online. I am going out to catch up with a friend this afternoon.






My brain, on the walk, returned to what I should do in 2026. Write screenplays, run online workshops, boost the AOTS projects, read that feature script I said I would, read those book chapters I said I would (why is reading other people’s work such a brain barrier? work out why it is), clean out my room, delete old emails, watch more short films, pick which film will be my first of the year (because I’ll see it all year on my Letterboxd stats — so it’s a big decision). I have a huge list of things to do. I have things I should post about. I don’t post here very often. This is the first thing I have done off my list.
It’s a small step. I’m not promising to write more often. It’s not that. But this is a small step over that barrier to get something written and out there.
Kia kaha.
Ngā mihi o te Kirihimete me te Tau Hau
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