So, I’ve been assessing my workload, and I’m not sure whether I’ll be running MASC in 2011.
It takes up a lot of my time. There are times when I love it (like when there are masses of people at a gig I’ve run, and I’ve met awesome people, and heard amazing music),


and times when I don’t (like when there isn’t an audience at a gig, and I’ve been too busy to advertise enough). Every year I think, ‘I don’t know if I can do this anymore’. Then I have an amazing experience, and think ‘I can’t not do this, it’s fantastic!’.
My 2011 is going to involve more study, part-time work, looking after the house, making films… and then there’s the stuff I don’t have time to do. I feel I don’t have enough time to put into following my own creative pursuits. I need more time for filmmaking and writing and playing music, dammit.
As I’m looking to move to London at the end of 2011 to be with my partner, I think now is the time to step away. Then I’ll have a year without that stress (and, knowing me, I’ll fill my time all kinds of other stress!).
Anyway, I’m still undecided.
I advertised for people to take over or help out in the last email newsletter, and have written a post on the MASC blog. Here’s hoping there are enough people out there who want to keep MASC going. I would hate for it to die.
Does anyone out there in the webiverse have an opinion? Have you ever had to choose between helping others creatively and helping yourself? Ever had to give up something you love so give yourself more time? I’m just curious.